Friday, September 28, 2012

BLOG FROM THE PAST: When To Believe

Dear Jenny Rei,


(posted June 12, 2007)

when to believe..

about a lifetime ago, someone said he loves me..  true enough, he loves me indeed yet cannot help but flirt with other women too..  flirting that sometimes leads to having an affair - affair that even his friends know about, but kept their silent in order to protect him, may that be because of their loyalty to him or just wants him to enjoy his life..

but he loves me, that's what he said..  when he's being annoyed by my tantrums during my pregnancy with our eldest..  when he couldn't stand my nagging attitude about being jobless and penniless..  when he's enjoying the company of his friends and schoolmates more than his expecting wife..  when he's more comfy sitting leisurely on their school bench more than taking care of his pregnant wife who doesn't even have a single peso on her pocket..

but he keeps on telling me he loves me..  when he's blaming me for not being a plain housewife thus couldn't take care of him like some dutiful wife does - that gave him all the right to have an affair with other women..


ahh, men!  during those times when i don't have a job, he complained about seeing my face each and every time of the day..  and when i got one, he's seeking more attention naman from me.. 


now im thinking if he really loves me..  he tells me so, but when exactly to believe?  how to tell if its true this time?  my heart's been broken a hundred times, is it worth it?


finally, i decided to believe him - for the last time, i may add..

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