I love you too much
To live without you loving me back
I love you too much
Heaven's my witness and this is a fact
I know I belong
When I sing this song
There's love above love and it's ours
Cause I love you too much
I live for your touch
I whisper your name night after night
I love you too much
There's only one feeling and I know it's right
I know I belong
When I sing this song
There's love above love and it's ours
Cause I love you too much
Heaven knows your name I've been
Praying to have you
Come here by my side
Without you a part of me's missing
Just to make you my home I will fight
I know I belong
When I sing this song
There's love above love and it's ours
Cause I love you too much
I love you too much!
I love you too much
Heaven's my witness and this is a fact
You live in my soul
Your heart is my goal
There's love above love and it's mine
Cause I love you
There's love above love and it's yours
Cause I love you
There's love above love and it's ours
If you love me
As much
Unsent Letters
rants and ramblings.. hopes and dreams.. demented mind.. blistered heart..
Thursday, November 26, 2015
Tuesday, November 3, 2015
kahit kelan..
nothing beats the feeling of being inlove..
yung feeling na you have something to look forward to all the time..
yung feeling na hindi ka makatulog sa gabi pero ang aga aga mo pa rin magising kinabukasan para lang itext sya ng good morning..
yung paulit-ulit na palitan ng "i love you" one to sawa everyday pero sobrang nakakakilig pa rin everytime..
yung feeling na sobrang sakit sa puso kasi sobrang miss mo na sya..
yung feeling na..
*sigh*
nothing beats the feeling of being inlove..
yung feeling na you have something to look forward to all the time..
yung feeling na hindi ka makatulog sa gabi pero ang aga aga mo pa rin magising kinabukasan para lang itext sya ng good morning..
yung paulit-ulit na palitan ng "i love you" one to sawa everyday pero sobrang nakakakilig pa rin everytime..
yung feeling na sobrang sakit sa puso kasi sobrang miss mo na sya..
yung feeling na..
*sigh*
Saturday, August 2, 2014
don't you cry no more..
"Carry On Wayward Son"
Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more
Ah
Once I rose above the noise and confusion
Just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion
I was soaring ever higher, but I flew too high
Though my eyes could see I still was a blind man Though my mind could think I still was a mad man
I hear the voices when I'm dreaming,
I can hear them say
Carry on my wayward son,
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more
Masquerading as a man with a reason
My charade is the event of the season
And if I claim to be a wise man,
Well, it surely means that I don't know
On a stormy sea of moving emotion
Tossed about, I'm like a ship on the ocean
I set a course for winds of fortune,
But I hear the voices say
Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more no!
Carry on,
You will always remember
Carry on,
Nothing equals the splendor
Now your life's no longer empty
Surely heaven waits for you
Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry,
Don't you cry no more,
No more
Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more
Ah
Once I rose above the noise and confusion
Just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion
I was soaring ever higher, but I flew too high
Though my eyes could see I still was a blind man Though my mind could think I still was a mad man
I hear the voices when I'm dreaming,
I can hear them say
Carry on my wayward son,
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more
Masquerading as a man with a reason
My charade is the event of the season
And if I claim to be a wise man,
Well, it surely means that I don't know
On a stormy sea of moving emotion
Tossed about, I'm like a ship on the ocean
I set a course for winds of fortune,
But I hear the voices say
Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more no!
Carry on,
You will always remember
Carry on,
Nothing equals the splendor
Now your life's no longer empty
Surely heaven waits for you
Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry,
Don't you cry no more,
No more
Thursday, June 26, 2014
happy birthday to me..
Oh yeah, after a decade of misery, im finally able to say happy birthday to me :)
My loving husband *cough* took us to the mall yesterday and though im not really a mall person, id say it was a wonderful day for us.
He bought me the cutest jar, a comfy slipper, and some bits and bits that i find cute. And wow, he filed a 3-days leave of absence at the office just to celebrate with me, as he said. Hmm, does your beloved fubu knows about it? :P
Anyway, my oh-so-deary daughters bought me new curtains for our new home and omg i so love it. I love curtains :) i love the thought more :)
And we took a family pic together at some photo shop. My daughters? Lovely as ever :)
I bought him a new wallet btw, pity to those social climbing sluts who gave him one but ended up at the trash bin instead *cough* Mel Bulacan *cough*
Anyway, it was indeed a happy day for me :)
Friday, June 20, 2014
a poison tree..
I was angry with my friend:
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe:
I told it not, my wrath did grow.
And I watered it in fears
Night and morning with my tears,
And I sunned it with smiles
And with soft deceitful wiles.
And it grew both day and night,
Till it bore an apple bright,
And my foe beheld it shine,
And he knew that it was mine -
And into my garden stole
When the night had veiled the pole;
In the morning, glad, I see
My foe outstretched beneath the tree
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe:
I told it not, my wrath did grow.
And I watered it in fears
Night and morning with my tears,
And I sunned it with smiles
And with soft deceitful wiles.
And it grew both day and night,
Till it bore an apple bright,
And my foe beheld it shine,
And he knew that it was mine -
And into my garden stole
When the night had veiled the pole;
In the morning, glad, I see
My foe outstretched beneath the tree
Monday, June 16, 2014
Father's Day drama..
Father's Day ba? Lolz, enjoy na enjoy yan syempre ni JCC. Hindi raw ang Bhelat nyang si Mel Bulacan ang kalandian nya last night. *gasp* iba?! Bilis naman napalitan ng bhelat na yan. Just like that?! Iba talaga level ni JCC aka Lenny pagdating sa pangangabit, talentado! And i think may asawa rin ang latest nya ngayon kaya kabitan silang dalawa lolz. Because i dont think na basta nalang yun papayag na magkasama kami ni JCC tapos sneak sneak lang sila makapaglandi. Ang nakakatawa pa, Mimi rin ang tawag ni JCC sa kanya hahah. Ah wells, may mga tao talagang yan ang kaligayahan sa buhay kaya sino ba tayo para pigilan ang dalawang organs na nagnanasa sa isa't isa.
Anyway, for all the worthy fathers out there, kudos!
Saturday, May 31, 2014
It was a little before sunset
They were outside of some sort of a cottage in a beach
She was weaving something
When he asked her what is it
She smiled so lovingly it melted his heart
Then she showed him her work
And oh my god
It was a beautifully woven riot of flowers
And then she woke up..
What a lovely dream indeed..
Saturday, April 19, 2014
happy death anniversary to me..
April 18, 2000
The day i died, err, got married at a young age. I was so stupid back then. So blinded by the first love crap. 2 weeks preparation and there i was, saying "i do" eventhough its crystal clear that we're not in anyway ready yet. He has no job that time, but i do. We didnt even thought about getting ready to settle at all. That's why we just laugh at those ignorants saying na mukha raw akong pera. Hahah, Jay aka Lenny knew it first hand that its not true. Prolly just one of his many scheme to get somebody to bed (*cough* Mel Bulacan of Macquary *cough*)
Anyway, i got my long overdue gift (14 years to be exact) from my ever loving, faithful, honest and perfect husband *cough* *faints* on our death anniversary this year. A ring. Yeah, myyyy preciousss ring. Oh, our original wedding ring was long gone. I think we trashed it on our 2nd or 3rd year of being miserably married. He didnt bought it anyway, his mother did coz he has no job nga that time, diba? I still dont know why we're still together all these years. Masochist? Prolly aye hahah.
Sunday, January 5, 2014
to the immoral and trashy you..
Dearest Jay aka Lenny na kabit ni Mel Bulacan of Macquarie company and Rhema Lhen Felicidario and ni Jinks whoever the pokpok you are and ng kung sino-sino pang willing bumukaka sa walang kwentang palakabit kong asawa:
Pinamigay ko na pala lahat ng gamit mong galing sa ala-motel mong boarding house sa Makati since part lahat yun ng ka-imoralan mo, okay? Okay? Bye..
Saturday, January 4, 2014
divert here, divert there, here a divert, there a divert
And voila!
EVERYWHERE A DIVERT..
Hell yeah Old McDonald, your plan is flawless. You want to make me think that you're in the farm doing nothing but work work work, ayt?
But hell no. I knew all along.
Enjoy your trashy hobby, you'll die rin someday..
walang kakupas-kupas..
Jan 4, 2014
Called him, it was 3:45am. He said nagpapahinga raw sya, then i wonder why he's breathing heavily. I bet naistorbo ko sila.. What a way to start the year aye. Kahapon pa sila ganyan, guess nabitin sila last night ayt?
Friday, January 3, 2014
for the first time in forever..
From the movie Frozen. Jenny's version of the song.
For the first time in forever..
Hindi disaster ang pasko
For the first time in forever..
Walang kabit na sumisingit
"Im not sure though. Knowing Jay aka Lenny, hahamakin ang lahat makapangabit lamang. Who knows kung umiral na naman ang pagiging henyo nya sa panggagago ng pamilya. Balita ko nga may kasabay kumain yan sa Starmall Alabang bago pumasok ng office. And ang drama pa, bestfriends lang daw sila para di halatang imoral ang hobby nila. Hay haaay, madapa sana ang mga ganyang klase ng baboy."
Tuesday, October 8, 2013
Hmm, sino kaya sa mga beloved ni Jay aka Lenny ang controversial na "Babae Sa Fire Exit"?
Yung tangang dilag na always ready for sex with Jay aka Lenny dun sa boarding house nya sa Makati?
Just wondering, kasi for sure sya din yung mapalad na binahay ni Jay aka Lenny dun habang nasa Cavite sya with his family :P
Ah wells, some people really have a trashy hobby :P
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
quote ba?
“Some of life’s best lessons are learned at the worst
times.”
Yeah, probably true.
In my case, I consider the worst times of my life are
those times when I was pregnant with my daughters.
First time was year 2001-2002. I was jobless, and so is my husband. Genius idea, instead of looking for a job to
provide for his family, he decided to continue studying instead. Sadly, instead of studying to better himself,
he indulged in living like a bachelor.
Girlfriends here and there, barkada here and there, laboy here and
there, drinking beers here and there.
Without any care for his expecting wife who hasn’t had a single penny in
her pocket. He even totally ignored me
for two weeks before I gave birth to our eldest. When I was in labor for the whole day, he
even went to school to meet with his mistresses and barkadas while I was in so
much pain. And even when I gave birth
already, it didn’t stopped him from having the time of his life at school. Still smooching girls here and there, yeah,
he’s living the dream aye.
Worst times, ever..
I did nothing wrong during those times..
I was supposed to be taken cared of because of my situation.. I should learned my lesson not to get
involved with that kind of man again..
But as stupid as I can get, he and I went back together again after
almost a year of being separated..
So I got pregnant again with our second daughter. And voila!
After several years, I found out that he’s been fucking women here and
there again while I was pregnant that second time. The year was 2003-2004. And as always, he’s having the most fun and
orgasmic years sa kandungan ng mga nakaka-chat nya sa MIRC and with his constant
fuck buddy Rhema Felicidario. Glorious
moments of his life aye.
So there, those were the worst worst worst times of my
life.. And the best lesson I’ve finally learned? Not to get pregnant again, especially with him
as a father.
Worst times for me are not those times that I don’t have
money to budget. Best times for me are
not those times that he’s buying me things.
I like honesty and faithfulness more than money. But it’s impossible for you to have those
traits so I guess I have no choice but to settle to whatever amount you deemed
enough for us.
If only you followed Griffin’s advice, we wouldn’t have
to live in such miserable life for 13years now..
“The bitterest truths are always better than the sweetest
lies.”
budget budget budget..
3,500 coop loan payment
2,000 meralco
600 water district
500 cable
2,000 rent
1,500 internet
1,000 school service
2,000 kids' pocket money (2xP50/20days)
6,000 food/month (P200/day)
300 PTA school fee (P150x2)
2,000 cleaning/laundry services
groceries? pass..
21,400 total
23,000 budget (depends on the mood of the financer)
Actual Expenses (P1,600 budget for June15 - July15)
100 broom, water bucket, hanger
1500 school uniform
500 basic needs (busog lusog for pamela, juice pambaon, biscuits pambaon, some delata, detergents)
1500 school uniform
500 basic needs (busog lusog for pamela, juice pambaon, biscuits pambaon, some delata, detergents)
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Thank you Lord for these blessings..
Saturday, June 15, 2013
ring ring ring..
I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change, I spent on you
Where have the times gone?
Baby, it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?
Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember
The people we used to be...
It's even harder to picture
That you're not here next to me
You say it's too late to make it
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down
I've wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed
Still stuck in that time when we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise...
I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change, I spent on you
Where have the times gone?
Baby, it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?
If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairy tales are full of shit
All of my change, I spent on you
Where have the times gone?
Baby, it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?
Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember
The people we used to be...
It's even harder to picture
That you're not here next to me
You say it's too late to make it
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down
I've wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed
Still stuck in that time when we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise...
I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change, I spent on you
Where have the times gone?
Baby, it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?
If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairy tales are full of shit
One more fucking love song, I'll be sick
You turned your back on tomorrow
'Cause you forgot yesterday
I gave you my love to borrow
But you just gave it away
You can't expect me to be fine
I don't expect you to care
I know I said it before
But all of our bridges burned down
I've wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed
Still stuck in that time when we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise...
I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change, I spent on you
Where have the times gone
Baby, it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?
If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairy tales are full of shit
You turned your back on tomorrow
'Cause you forgot yesterday
I gave you my love to borrow
But you just gave it away
You can't expect me to be fine
I don't expect you to care
I know I said it before
But all of our bridges burned down
I've wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed
Still stuck in that time when we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise...
I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change, I spent on you
Where have the times gone
Baby, it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?
If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairy tales are full of shit
One more fucking love song, I'll be sick
Now I'm at a payphone...
Man, fuck that shit
I'll be out spending all this money
While you're sitting 'round wondering
Why it wasn't you who came up from nothing
Made it from the bottom
Now when you see me I'm stuntin'
And all cars start with the push of a button
Telling me the chances I blew up or whatever you call it
Switch the number to my phone so you never could call it
Don't need my name on my show, you can tell it I'm ballin'
Swish, what a shame, could have got picked
Had a really good game but you missed your last shot
So you talk about who you see at the top
Or what you could have saw
But sad to say it's over for
Phantom pulled up, valet open doors
Wiz like go away, got what you was looking for
Now it's me who they want
So you can go and take that little piece of shit with you
I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change, I spent on you
Where have the times gone
Baby, it's all wrong, where are the plans we made for two
If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
And all these fairy tales are full of shit
Yeah, one more fucking love song, I'll be sick
Now I'm at a payphone...
Thursday, June 6, 2013
Rhema Felicidario
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Rhema Felicidario Kabit Ni JCC |
Things I Remember About Them
(as per Jay's kwento)
Okay, she's the girl from GMA, Cavite.
The year was 2006, she was studying that time at Dasma, Cavite.
Classmate sya ng ipokritang sister ni Jay na si Joyce Ann.
One sem lang sya nakapag-college coz sabi ni Jay masyado raw kasing pasikat ang babaing ito.
Pasikat na wala namang K because their family couldn't really afford naman talaga her education.
She was initially infatuated with Rodolfo's brother.
Pero deadma sya dun sa guy kaya Jay decided na aluin ang kawawang girl.
May pustahan daw that time kung makukuha nya ang panty ng babaing ito.
So there, nag-motel sila somewhere sa paliparan kasi dun mura.
And voila! Nanalo syempre sa pustahan ang pasikat kong ex-husband.
Then naging routine na nila ang mag-sex kung saan-saan.
Kung saan-saang cheap motels, bahay mismo ng nanay ni Jay, sa computer shop ni Jojo.
Literally, fuck buddy ang dalawa.
According to Jay, tanggap naman daw ni Rhema na may asawa sya.
Okay lang daw kahit dakilang kabit lang sya.
She even asked Jay pa raw na buntisin sya and hindi sya maghahabol.
What I don't understand is panay ang pakikipag-sex ni Jay sa babaing ito kahit na he claimed na deteriorating daw ang pussy ni Rhema.
Yes, deteriorating kasi she has skin disease.
Lagi silang nagkikita para lang mag-sex, without Jay's wife knowledge.
One time, panggabi si Jay sa work.
His wife discovered na nasa Alabang Sogo lang pala sya.
Later on he confesed na kasama nya si Rhema dun.
Patay na patay raw kasi sa kanya ang babaing yun kaya lagi syang niyayang mag-sex.
Most of the time nga raw, si Rhema pa ang nagbabayad sa motel at nililibre sya ng Pork Liempo.
Pati raw sa bus ay nagfi-finger si Rhema.
Lagi kasi silang magkasabay umuwi sa Cavite that time na sa Makati pa sya nagwo-work.
Kahit nga sa office ni Jay ay nakapag-sex na sila because lagi raw syang sinusundo ni Rhema.
All these years, tight pa rin ang communication ng dalawa.
Masaya na si Rhema kahit ganun ang takbo ng relationship nila.
Basta kasama at kaniig nya lang si Jay, wala na syang mahihiling pa.
SH ang code ng dalawa.
Sa text or sa email and even sa facebook and skype.
Walang hindi ibibigay si Rhema para kay Jay.
Basta magkasama sila, lagi syang open legs para sa kanyang pinakamamahal.
Pag naman hindi sila pwedeng magkita, sa video cam naman sya nakabukaka habang ka-chat si Jay.
Si Jay na aliw na aliw sa nakabukakang si Rhema, na madalas ay hirap na hirap sumimple lalo at nasa malapit lang ang kanyang pangit na asawa.
Kahit sa boarding house sa Makati, lagi syang napunta doon para lang makaniig ang kanyang mahal.
Maraming wild wild wild nights silang pinagsaluhan doon.
Buti na lang hindi alintana ni Jay ang kanyang deteriorating na pussy.
Sarap na sarap sa kanya ang kanyang pinakamamahal.
kaya naman kahit tumuwad pa sya sa lahat ng sulok ng boarding house, okay lang sa kanya.
Kahit anong iutos sa kanya ni Jay, gagawin nya.
Ultimo pagpunta sa bahay ni Jay kahit madaling-araw para lang maka-sex sya ay okay na okay sa kanya.
Or ang pag-uutos nito na baguhin ang kanyang profile sa Facebook.
Or ang pagbibigay nya ng access sa kanyang email.
Or ang pag-uutos nito na dapat lagi syang nakabukaka sa cam.
At marami pang iba.
Ganyan nya kamahal si Jay.
At ganun din sya kamahal nito kaya naman all these years, hindi pa rin sya iniiwanan nito.
Kahit ang paggamit ng *toot toot* ay okay lang sa kanya, basta ang kapalit ay sobrang wild wild na pagniniig.
Mas masarap nga pag may *toot toot* dahil wala silang kapaguran sa pagse-sex for days.
Panakaw man ang mga sandaling pinagsasaluhan nila, masaya na sila at kuntento.
Basta lagi silang magka-sex sa mga sandaling magkasama sila, wala na syang mahihiling pa.
Thursday, May 30, 2013
I want to write something about you.
How you remind me that fairy tale still exists amidst the nightmare.
That people can still be corny and fall inlove over and over again even after fumbling a hundred times.
That eventhough we thought we can no longer love or even believe in love, it always strikes us when we least expects it.
"You showed me the way, when I was all locked up inside. You reached out your hand and took me on a magic carpet ride."
Thank you..
Timing is everything..
Even if its just an illusion, thank you for being there still..
You may not know it, but your 'presence' means a lot to me..
Monday, May 27, 2013
ta..
Congrats with your new life with your beloved.
I think I already privatized this blog for your sake and as per your demand na rin. I bet ibang version ang alam nya tungkol satin. What about this time? Na ikaw ang niloloko ko? Na ikaw ang kawawa? Na ikaw ang agrabyado? Na ako ang elitista pagdating sa panggagago?
If she only knew the real story..
But don't worry, your precious secret is safe with me. She won't be able to google this blog so she won't know the truth behind our marital issues.
I wish you two a happy and honest life.
Sana maging masaya ka na talaga this time.
And to you Jinks, or whoever you are na latest ng ex-husband ko, paki-alagaan ng maayos si Jay ha, or Lenny or Leonard, whatever call sign he gave you. He's a very special guy and he would do practically anything for the one he loves. Kaya napaka-swerte mo. Take really good care of him kasi sakitin yan kaya wag mo papaulanan ha. And always remind him na uminom ng vitamins and water na rin, kasi mahilig sa softdrinks yan eh hindi naman healthy ang ganun diba. Bilhan mo rin sya ng bagong gamit lagi. Nauubos kasi samin ng mga bata sweldo nya kaya di nya maasikaso sarili nya masyado. May isang pinagkakagastusan yan bukod sa'yo, try to understand him na lang and help him out all the time. Ikaw na bahala sa kanya ha. Hindi ko na kasi sya kayang alagaan. I'm too beat to even love him as a friend. My bitterness has numb me from ever believing anything he says kaya nagkakasakitan lang kami all the time. Just make him happy. Love him like how he deserves. He's a wonderful guy, I just hope you're worthy of his love.
I'm happy for both of you. Just keep moving forward and don't let anything or anyone affects you negatively. Stay with him thru all times, may that be good or bad. And never let him go.
I'll share you something to inspire you. Always think of this whenever something arises between you two to help you calm down and remind you how special your relationship is:
”When grapes are grown, the winemakers purposely stress them out by
depriving them of water and giving them an over abundance of sunshine. This weeds out the weak ones. Only the strongest and best survive. Those
are the grapes that make the finest wines... The greatest love, survives
the harshest conditions – and surviving that turmoil is what makes a
marriage strong.”
whatever makes you happy..
Incoming hacker or whatever..
You gonna post my naked pics or video scandals or whatever you had against me and spread it to the world especially my family and friends?
Do your worst. You're good at that anyway.
I so not care anymore about you and your precious mistresses.
Do the escapades like you always do. Don't worry, no ex-wife would interfere in your happiness this time. Do not let this bitch ruin your merry and orgasmic life, just focus on your current relationship. Be happy, you so deserved it for donating 'some' of your income for your children. I know naman, kwentado mo value naming mag-iina. But for your precious kabit, sky is the limit. It's okay, hindi ko na ipakikipagtalo sa'yo yan. It's your money anyway. Heck, I don't even know your salary. Don't even know your bonus value, I don't even see your payslip whatsoever and even your atm card. It's your money, I know.
Just have a happy life na lang like you always do. No need to pretend na ikaw ang kawawa and agrabyado between us. You know what you're doing. Kunsensya mo na lang yan.
Live pretending and die denying. Whatever works for you. This time, suportado kita, won't even bother with you anymore. Stop wasting your time over a trash like me, just keep moving forward.
advice for the day..
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wag kang gumawa ng kahiya-hiyang bagay
Bakit Ngayon Ka Lang - Chapter 2
One Sunday evening, Dingdong got a text message from Marian. "Nhie, I'll be online tonight. Chat tayo, okay? And btw, I so miss your licks :P"
Yikes, patay! Nandito pa naman sa place ko ang pangit kong asawa. Nalulungkot kasi ako kaya niyaya ko sya and mga bata mag-stay dito. Need ko rin syempre magpanggap na okay pa rin kami, yari ako pag nalaman nya na may pinakamamahal na akong iba. Baka mag-iskandalo pa yun sa work, eh di wala na akong pangsustento sa Nhie ko at iwan ako nun. Bah, hindi yata pwede yun, ikamamatay ko yun noh! Hirap na hirap na nga ako magpanggap at mag-deny sa pangit kong asawa everytime na may nakikita syang ebidensya or bakas ng pinagsaluhan namin ng Nhie ko. Minsan kasi hindi ko masyadong nak-clear yung place. Lakas pa naman ng kutob kutob ng bruhang yun. Pero ewan ko ba, minsan di ko alam kung maswerte lang ako talaga or sadyang tanga yung pangit kong asawa. Lagi akong nakakalusot kahit na sobrang alanganin na ako.
Like nung nakita nyang nakakalat yung vibrator na pambabae sa ilalim ng kama ko sa boarding house sa Makati. Pati yung mga bakas ng love juice ko sa pader habang doggie ko si Marian sa harap ng salamin. Yung mga nakakalat ng buhok buhok ni Marian all over the place. Yung nakakalat na pamunas ng love juice sa ilalim ng kama. Yung naiwan kong short na nasa loaf nung time na nag-sex kami ni Marian dun gamit yung isa pang vibrator na binili ko para sa kanya. At yung na-record na audio ng pangit kong asawa na kung saan moan ng moan si Marian. Ekk.
At marami pang iba. Everytime, nalulusutan ko lahat yun. Napaka-swerte ko at nagkaron ako ng asawang tanga sa katauhan ni Pokwang. Nagagawa ko na ang lahat ng gusto ko kay Marian, may nauuto pa akong pangit na asawa.
Eto problema ko ngayon. Nagpasabi nga si Marian na usap nga raw kami magdamag kaso nandito si Pokwang at mga bata. Ah bahala na, kaya ko tong lusutan.
"Pokwang, dami akong tatapusing work mamayang gabi ha. Dami kong deadline, tapos sobrang pressured pa ako sa manager ko. Baka masisante ako pag hindi ko to natapos. Kaya puyat muna ako tonight ha, tapusin ko na to."
Ayos lusot. Pag work ang dinadahilan ko, walang say si Pokwang. So eto na.. Excited na ako. Sobrang miss na miss ko kaya si Marian. Hirap na hirap akong sumimple ng text sa kanya lalo at nasa malapit lang si Pokwang. Kunwari utol ko nagte-text, or kaya naman globe lang. Pero kwidaw ka, sumisimple na ako ng "lick lick" message kay Marian nun heheh. Gustong gusto naman nya kaya sabik ako lagi at laging galit alaga ko everytime na naiisip ko si Marian.
Hmm, pano kaya to. Habang magkausap kami ni Marian (tulog na si Pokwang kaya malaya akong nakikipag-video chat sa pinakamamahal ko) sinabi nyang gusto nya ng seryosohin ang aming relasyon. Sinabi ko kasi sa kanya na wala na kami ng asawa ko at nag-uusap na lang pag tungkol sa mga bata. Pero ayaw nya daw ng ganun. Nagseselos daw sya pag magkasama kami ni Pokwang. Eh yari, makakahalata naman si Pokwang nun pag binigla ko sya. Ah alam ko na, tutal naman mahilig magpasaring si Pokwang tungkol sa mga naging babae ko kaya kunwari mapipikon na talaga ako ng bonggang bongga once na magsalita pa sya tungkol sa mga ganung bagay.
Wapak! Perfect! Our talk went well. Konting acting na kunwari galit na talaga ako and voila! Sinabi ko kay Pokwang na tapusin na namin kung anumang natitira pa sa relasyon namin. Wala ng usap usap. Wala ng kita kita. Wala ng pakialamanan whatsoever.
Wahahah, ganun kasimple! So ngayon, Marian and I can live happily ever after na. Sinabihan ko si Pokwang na wag na makikialam sa buhay ko. Haaay, excited na ako mamayang gabi :) For sure bigay na bigay na naman si marian nito since napasaya ko sya. Not to mention dadagdagan ko pa sustento nya para hindi na nya ako iwan :)
Finally, we can do whatever we want, whenever we want. Life is good to me :) And orgasmic too heheh :P
Yikes, patay! Nandito pa naman sa place ko ang pangit kong asawa. Nalulungkot kasi ako kaya niyaya ko sya and mga bata mag-stay dito. Need ko rin syempre magpanggap na okay pa rin kami, yari ako pag nalaman nya na may pinakamamahal na akong iba. Baka mag-iskandalo pa yun sa work, eh di wala na akong pangsustento sa Nhie ko at iwan ako nun. Bah, hindi yata pwede yun, ikamamatay ko yun noh! Hirap na hirap na nga ako magpanggap at mag-deny sa pangit kong asawa everytime na may nakikita syang ebidensya or bakas ng pinagsaluhan namin ng Nhie ko. Minsan kasi hindi ko masyadong nak-clear yung place. Lakas pa naman ng kutob kutob ng bruhang yun. Pero ewan ko ba, minsan di ko alam kung maswerte lang ako talaga or sadyang tanga yung pangit kong asawa. Lagi akong nakakalusot kahit na sobrang alanganin na ako.
Like nung nakita nyang nakakalat yung vibrator na pambabae sa ilalim ng kama ko sa boarding house sa Makati. Pati yung mga bakas ng love juice ko sa pader habang doggie ko si Marian sa harap ng salamin. Yung mga nakakalat ng buhok buhok ni Marian all over the place. Yung nakakalat na pamunas ng love juice sa ilalim ng kama. Yung naiwan kong short na nasa loaf nung time na nag-sex kami ni Marian dun gamit yung isa pang vibrator na binili ko para sa kanya. At yung na-record na audio ng pangit kong asawa na kung saan moan ng moan si Marian. Ekk.
At marami pang iba. Everytime, nalulusutan ko lahat yun. Napaka-swerte ko at nagkaron ako ng asawang tanga sa katauhan ni Pokwang. Nagagawa ko na ang lahat ng gusto ko kay Marian, may nauuto pa akong pangit na asawa.
Eto problema ko ngayon. Nagpasabi nga si Marian na usap nga raw kami magdamag kaso nandito si Pokwang at mga bata. Ah bahala na, kaya ko tong lusutan.
"Pokwang, dami akong tatapusing work mamayang gabi ha. Dami kong deadline, tapos sobrang pressured pa ako sa manager ko. Baka masisante ako pag hindi ko to natapos. Kaya puyat muna ako tonight ha, tapusin ko na to."
Ayos lusot. Pag work ang dinadahilan ko, walang say si Pokwang. So eto na.. Excited na ako. Sobrang miss na miss ko kaya si Marian. Hirap na hirap akong sumimple ng text sa kanya lalo at nasa malapit lang si Pokwang. Kunwari utol ko nagte-text, or kaya naman globe lang. Pero kwidaw ka, sumisimple na ako ng "lick lick" message kay Marian nun heheh. Gustong gusto naman nya kaya sabik ako lagi at laging galit alaga ko everytime na naiisip ko si Marian.
Hmm, pano kaya to. Habang magkausap kami ni Marian (tulog na si Pokwang kaya malaya akong nakikipag-video chat sa pinakamamahal ko) sinabi nyang gusto nya ng seryosohin ang aming relasyon. Sinabi ko kasi sa kanya na wala na kami ng asawa ko at nag-uusap na lang pag tungkol sa mga bata. Pero ayaw nya daw ng ganun. Nagseselos daw sya pag magkasama kami ni Pokwang. Eh yari, makakahalata naman si Pokwang nun pag binigla ko sya. Ah alam ko na, tutal naman mahilig magpasaring si Pokwang tungkol sa mga naging babae ko kaya kunwari mapipikon na talaga ako ng bonggang bongga once na magsalita pa sya tungkol sa mga ganung bagay.
Wapak! Perfect! Our talk went well. Konting acting na kunwari galit na talaga ako and voila! Sinabi ko kay Pokwang na tapusin na namin kung anumang natitira pa sa relasyon namin. Wala ng usap usap. Wala ng kita kita. Wala ng pakialamanan whatsoever.
Wahahah, ganun kasimple! So ngayon, Marian and I can live happily ever after na. Sinabihan ko si Pokwang na wag na makikialam sa buhay ko. Haaay, excited na ako mamayang gabi :) For sure bigay na bigay na naman si marian nito since napasaya ko sya. Not to mention dadagdagan ko pa sustento nya para hindi na nya ako iwan :)
Finally, we can do whatever we want, whenever we want. Life is good to me :) And orgasmic too heheh :P
Saturday, May 11, 2013
Bakit Ngayon Ka Lang - Chapter 1
Ito ay kwento ng dalawang taong lubos na nagmamahalan at nagnanasaan sa isa't isa. Sina Dingdong at Marian. Sa lahat ng pagkakataon, ang dalawang ito ay laging magkausap, ito man ay sa text messaging or sa skype. Sa lahat ng pagkakataon, and I mean, sa lahat ng panakaw na pagkakataon, dahil sa kasamaang palad, si Dingdong ay may asawa na at dalawang anak.
Napakasaklap na tadhana, ang makilala ang babaing iyong pinapangarap sa maling oras at pagkakataon. Yung tipong nais mong sumigaw at kumanta ng "Sayang" ni Claire dela Fuentes, or ng "Ikaw Sana" ni Ogie Alcasid.
Napakahirap. Hindi mo sya maaaring pakawalan dahil ikamamatay mo ang inyong paghihiwalay. Ngunit sa madalang na pagkakataon, sumusundot ang iyong kunsensiya. Ikaw ay may-asawa at babae pa ang iyong dalawang anak, ano itong kaimoralang iyong ginagawa?
No. He won't give in. Sobrang mahal niya at pinagnanasaan si Marian. Si Marian na ibinibigay ang lahat sa kanya. Lahat ng pagnanasang kailangan nya ay pinupunan ni Marian. May that be sa motel na lagi nilang pinupuntahan, or sa sarili niyang tahanan sa mga patagong pagkakataon tuwing madaling araw na sya ay nagpapanggap na nagtatrabaho. Si Dingdong nga po pala ay panggabi sa kanyang trabaho at nabiyayaan na makapag-work at home kaya nasa kanila ni Marian ang lahat ng pagkakataon na makapagsarili buong magdamag.
Yes. Kahit po si Dingdong ay naturingang may-asawa, magkahiwalay naman po sila ng tirahan. Ang kanyang pangit na asawa ay naninirahan sa kabilang ibayo kasama ang kanilang dalawang anak. Samantalang si Dingdong at nanatili sa dati nilang tirahan sa lote ng kanyang matuwid at santa pa sa santang ina. Buwan buwan naman sya nagbibigay ng abuloy, este sustento sa kanyang mag-iina. Sustentong masasabi ng sapat sa kanilang pamumuhay kaya naisip nyang wala na siguro silang pakialam kahit na maubos pa ang kanyang natitirang sweldo sa kanyang pinakamamahal at pinagnanasaang si Marian. Since hindi alam ng kanyang pangit na asawa kung magkano talaga ang kanyang sweldo, wala itong kaalam-alam kung magkano ang nilulustay ni Dingdong makaniig lamang or masilayan lamang ang hubad na katawan ni Marian sa kama man o sa video chat.
Friday, March 15, 2013
message in a bottle..
March 15, 2013
Rest well. That is, if you didn't order yesterday. But knowing you, I think you did. Give my regards to your beloved Fuck Buddy aswell. So sweet of her to accompany you in the office and spread her legs for you anytime you need someone to screw.
Did you tell her that you gave me her fake pendant back then? Or did you just say that you can't find it? I know she needed to take it off back then because its getting in the way whenever she's on top riding you like crazy because you two are so high in drugs and sex.
Anyway, goodluck fucking her eventhough you said her puss is deteriorating most of the time because of her disease. Now I'm beginning to worry if we'll gonna have sex sometime. Might ask you to put condoms this time coz who knows who else she's fucking aswell.
Ah wells, hope you're happy with what you're doing. I bet you are, because you've been doing that for years. Kudos to you then!
Messages In A Bottle
I'm trying not to argue with you because I know I don't have any right anymore. Aside from the fact that I shouldn't even be affected too. But I can't help these thoughts from flowing. I guess the best way to do for now is just to keep it in notes rather than telling it to you straight like I always do. It'll just ruin both of us anyway, so no need to really slap the reality into each other. Might as well just pretend that we're fine and everything's cool. Just for the sake of the kids.
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
youth rhapsody..
Our stale words are chained together
But yet, we just want to convey our simple feelings
The wind that blew itself out on that day
Is abandoned into yesterday's ruins
I'm laughing with you, and living the moment
None the less, what happened then torments you doesn't it?
Well then, goodbye
Leaving nothing left as it is
I just share it with you
Soon, we'll come to realize that that means everything
Sadness runs down my cheek
And it just turns into a river of tears
My swaying feelings turn into a strong whirlpool
And they mix together
Irritation, or just a little bit of loneliness
Just what were these things to us anyway?
We're character in a drama
"Hey, how 'bout it?"
Even if we turn around to look at who's voice that is
Won't there just be no one there?
So we'll scream it out
None the less, won't our voices reach out everywhere?
Well then, goodbye
And time passes again
I just share it with you
Soon, we'll come to realize that that means everything
Sadness runs down my cheek
And it just turns into a trickle of song
My swaying feelings turn into a strong whirlpool
And they mix together, they mix together
(Spoken)
The wind that blew itself out on that day
Is abandoned into yesterday's ruins, oh yeah
Leaving nothing left as it is
I just share it with you
And you realize that the present means everything
Sadness runs down my cheek
And it just turns into a river of tears
My swaying feelings turn into a fleeting sea
And they mix together
And they mix together
And they mix together
(Spoken)
Soon, we'll come to realize that that means everything
Soon, we'll remember sadness running down our cheeks
Soon we'll, soon we'll...
I'll mix together with you
I'll mix together with you
But yet, we just want to convey our simple feelings
The wind that blew itself out on that day
Is abandoned into yesterday's ruins
I'm laughing with you, and living the moment
None the less, what happened then torments you doesn't it?
Well then, goodbye
Leaving nothing left as it is
I just share it with you
Soon, we'll come to realize that that means everything
Sadness runs down my cheek
And it just turns into a river of tears
My swaying feelings turn into a strong whirlpool
And they mix together
Irritation, or just a little bit of loneliness
Just what were these things to us anyway?
We're character in a drama
"Hey, how 'bout it?"
Even if we turn around to look at who's voice that is
Won't there just be no one there?
So we'll scream it out
None the less, won't our voices reach out everywhere?
Well then, goodbye
And time passes again
I just share it with you
Soon, we'll come to realize that that means everything
Sadness runs down my cheek
And it just turns into a trickle of song
My swaying feelings turn into a strong whirlpool
And they mix together, they mix together
(Spoken)
The wind that blew itself out on that day
Is abandoned into yesterday's ruins, oh yeah
Leaving nothing left as it is
I just share it with you
And you realize that the present means everything
Sadness runs down my cheek
And it just turns into a river of tears
My swaying feelings turn into a fleeting sea
And they mix together
And they mix together
And they mix together
(Spoken)
Soon, we'll come to realize that that means everything
Soon, we'll remember sadness running down our cheeks
Soon we'll, soon we'll...
I'll mix together with you
I'll mix together with you
turn sadness into kindness..
Yeah, turn sadness into kindness
Turn the things that make you yourself into strength
It’s OK to get lost, start walking
Once again, once again
Turn the things that make you yourself into strength
It’s OK to get lost, start walking
Once again, once again
Do you like meeting all people’s expectations
And being praised for it?
Do you always have a wonderful smile
Even if you don’t turn out the way you want to?
And being praised for it?
Do you always have a wonderful smile
Even if you don’t turn out the way you want to?
I wake up from dreaming only about the beginning
What comes next will be in my hands someday
Yeah, the most precious things
Are always the ones that have no shape
The ones you don’t realize
When you gain them and lose them
Yeah, turn sadness into kindness
Turn the things that make you yourself into strength
It’s OK to get lost, start walking
Once again, once again
Adults are smart
When they meet someone they lecture them relentlessly
You become unable to be yourself
And when you get hurt, you harden up right away
Take the new wind as your ally
It’s OK to search someday for the blue bird
Yeah, the most precious things
Are always the ones that have no shape
The ones you don’t realize
When you gain them and lose them
Yeah, turn sadness into kindness
Turn the things that make you yourself into strength
It’s OK to get lost, start walking
For some reason the sky has shaken off its tears
A rainbow’s appeared, so naturally
The rain has stopped
So the most precious things
Are always the ones that have no shape
The ones you don’t realize
When you gain them and lose them
Yeah, turn sadness into kindness
Turn the things that make you yourself into strength
It’s OK to get lost, start walking
Once again, once again
Once again, is that enough?
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
The Who?
Okay, our portion for today is about the so-called aggrieved party who supported us so far.
The who is this supporter?
Siya ba ay isang ulirang ama at asawa na hindi ma-take na mayroong isang lalaki na grabe kung manggago ng sarling pamilya?
Siya ba ay anak ng isang prominenteng miyembro ng isang religious group na kunwari ay may hawak na Biblya sa araw-araw pero kwidaw ka, walang pakundangang manira at man-tsismis sa buhay ng ibang tao at elitista pagdating sa kaipokritahan?
Siya ba ay nasa listahan ng most-sought bachelor of the year kaya lahat ng barkada kaibigan pamilya kamag-anak co-workers nya ay suportado sya sa kanyang "affairs"?
Siya ba ay miyembro ng singhot rugby gang kaya kung anu-ano na lang ang kanyang sinasabi?
I dare you, kung sino ka mang supporter ka. Pabulaanan mo ang bawat post sa blog na ito. I'll look forward sa susunod mong kumento. Paumanhin na rin sa aking sobrang delayed na reacton, ngayon ko lang kasi napagtuunan ito ulit ng pansin.
And oh, if you would be so kind na rin, could you please update your memory and state your cases that happened around 1-2years ago? Your claims are so outdated (happened 5-6years ago pa), if I may add.
The who is this supporter?
Siya ba ay isang ulirang ama at asawa na hindi ma-take na mayroong isang lalaki na grabe kung manggago ng sarling pamilya?
Siya ba ay anak ng isang prominenteng miyembro ng isang religious group na kunwari ay may hawak na Biblya sa araw-araw pero kwidaw ka, walang pakundangang manira at man-tsismis sa buhay ng ibang tao at elitista pagdating sa kaipokritahan?
Siya ba ay nasa listahan ng most-sought bachelor of the year kaya lahat ng barkada kaibigan pamilya kamag-anak co-workers nya ay suportado sya sa kanyang "affairs"?
Siya ba ay miyembro ng singhot rugby gang kaya kung anu-ano na lang ang kanyang sinasabi?
I dare you, kung sino ka mang supporter ka. Pabulaanan mo ang bawat post sa blog na ito. I'll look forward sa susunod mong kumento. Paumanhin na rin sa aking sobrang delayed na reacton, ngayon ko lang kasi napagtuunan ito ulit ng pansin.
And oh, if you would be so kind na rin, could you please update your memory and state your cases that happened around 1-2years ago? Your claims are so outdated (happened 5-6years ago pa), if I may add.
Friday, October 12, 2012
just be grateful..
Dear You,
Just be grateful, you stupid.. Even if you saw him making a great-of-a-fool
over you, just let it pass.. Ignore the
earth-shattering pain, never mind even if he seems like he’s having so much fun
toying with your stupidity and moronic self..
Just be grateful that he’s still around even if it’s just
for entertainment’s sake of trashing and insulting and stomping a retard like
you.. Someone like you doesn’t have a
single bit of right to even complain..
It’s your duty and obligation to provide him that level of
entertainment, because no one in this whole damn world are more stupid than
you..
Just be grateful..
At least you’re still eating 3-4 times a day.. You owe him big time for picking you off the
trash bin and sending you to a dumpster..
Aww, don’t feel bad, maybe you’re not just repaying him enough for
everything he’s done to you, thus the wonderful treatment..
Just be grateful that he’s maturing more than ever and
evolving into something more amazing to let you see his genius works of
encrypting a file, hiding chat window, the quicker-than-the-ray-of-light way of
alt-tabbing and hitting the shortcuts..
Just be grateful..
Instead of crying, just be grateful..
Because I seriously think that no one is more stronger than you in
taking every single blow with your face first.. Funny, I even thought only you can do that..
Just keep smiling..
Even just for yourself..