quote ba?

“Some of life’s best lessons are learned at the worst times.”

Yeah, probably true.

In my case, I consider the worst times of my life are those times when I was pregnant with my daughters.   

First time was year 2001-2002.  I was jobless, and so is my husband.  Genius idea, instead of looking for a job to provide for his family, he decided to continue studying instead.  Sadly, instead of studying to better himself, he indulged in living like a bachelor.  Girlfriends here and there, barkada here and there, laboy here and there, drinking beers here and there.  Without any care for his expecting wife who hasn’t had a single penny in her pocket.  He even totally ignored me for two weeks before I gave birth to our eldest.  When I was in labor for the whole day, he even went to school to meet with his mistresses and barkadas while I was in so much pain.  And even when I gave birth already, it didn’t stopped him from having the time of his life at school.  Still smooching girls here and there, yeah, he’s living the dream aye.

Worst times, ever..  I did nothing wrong during those times..  I was supposed to be taken cared of because of my situation..  I should learned my lesson not to get involved with that kind of man again..  But as stupid as I can get, he and I went back together again after almost a year of being separated..

So I got pregnant again with our second daughter.  And voila!  After several years, I found out that he’s been fucking women here and there again while I was pregnant that second time.  The year was 2003-2004.  And as always, he’s having the most fun and orgasmic years sa kandungan ng mga nakaka-chat nya sa MIRC and with his constant fuck buddy Rhema Felicidario.  Glorious moments of his life aye.

So there, those were the worst worst worst times of my life..  And the best lesson I’ve finally learned?  Not to get pregnant again, especially with him as a father.

Worst times for me are not those times that I don’t have money to budget.  Best times for me are not those times that he’s buying me things.  I like honesty and faithfulness more than money.  But it’s impossible for you to have those traits so I guess I have no choice but to settle to whatever amount you deemed enough for us.

If only you followed Griffin’s advice, we wouldn’t have to live in such miserable life for 13years now..

“The bitterest truths are always better than the sweetest lies.”

budget budget budget..

3,500    coop loan payment

2,000    meralco

600       water district

500       cable

2,000    rent

1,500    internet

1,000    school service

2,000    kids' pocket money (2xP50/20days)

6,000    food/month (P200/day)

300       PTA school fee (P150x2)

2,000   cleaning/laundry services

groceries?  pass..

21,400   total

23,000   budget (depends on the mood of the financer)

Actual Expenses (P1,600 budget for June15 - July15)

100    broom, water bucket, hanger
1500  school uniform
500   basic needs (busog lusog for pamela, juice pambaon, biscuits pambaon, some delata, detergents)

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Thank you Lord for these blessings..

ring ring ring..

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change, I spent on you
Where have the times gone?
Baby, it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?

Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember
The people we used to be...
It's even harder to picture
That you're not here next to me

You say it's too late to make it
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down

I've wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed
Still stuck in that time when we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise...

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change, I spent on you
Where have the times gone?
Baby, it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?

If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairy tales are full of shit

One more fucking love song, I'll be sick

You turned your back on tomorrow
'Cause you forgot yesterday
I gave you my love to borrow
But you just gave it away

You can't expect me to be fine
I don't expect you to care
I know I said it before
But all of our bridges burned down

I've wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed
Still stuck in that time when we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise...

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change, I spent on you
Where have the times gone
Baby, it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?
If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairy tales are full of shit

One more fucking love song, I'll be sick

Now I'm at a payphone...

Man, fuck that shit
I'll be out spending all this money
While you're sitting 'round wondering
Why it wasn't you who came up from nothing

Made it from the bottom
Now when you see me I'm stuntin'
And all cars start with the push of a button
Telling me the chances I blew up or whatever you call it
Switch the number to my phone so you never could call it

Don't need my name on my show, you can tell it I'm ballin'
Swish, what a shame, could have got picked
Had a really good game but you missed your last shot
So you talk about who you see at the top
Or what you could have saw

But sad to say it's over for
Phantom pulled up, valet open doors
Wiz like go away, got what you was looking for
Now it's me who they want
So you can go and take that little piece of shit with you

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change, I spent on you
Where have the times gone
Baby, it's all wrong, where are the plans we made for two

If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
And all these fairy tales are full of shit
Yeah, one more fucking love song, I'll be sick

Now I'm at a payphone... 

Rhema Felicidario

Rhema Felicidario Kabit Ni JCC

Things I Remember About Them
(as per Jay's kwento)

Okay, she's the girl from GMA, Cavite. 
The year was 2006, she was studying that time at Dasma, Cavite.
Classmate sya ng ipokritang sister ni Jay na si Joyce Ann.
One sem lang sya nakapag-college coz sabi ni Jay masyado raw kasing pasikat ang babaing ito.
Pasikat na wala namang K because their family couldn't really afford naman talaga her education.
She was initially infatuated with Rodolfo's brother.
Pero deadma sya dun sa guy kaya Jay decided na aluin ang kawawang girl.
May pustahan daw that time kung makukuha nya ang panty ng babaing ito.
So there, nag-motel sila somewhere sa paliparan kasi dun mura.
And voila!  Nanalo syempre sa pustahan ang pasikat kong ex-husband.
Then naging routine na nila ang mag-sex kung saan-saan.
Kung saan-saang cheap motels, bahay mismo ng nanay ni Jay, sa computer shop ni Jojo.
Literally, fuck buddy ang dalawa.
According to Jay, tanggap naman daw ni Rhema na may asawa sya.
Okay lang daw kahit dakilang kabit lang sya.
She even asked Jay pa raw na buntisin sya and hindi sya maghahabol.
What I don't understand is panay ang pakikipag-sex ni Jay sa babaing ito kahit na he claimed na deteriorating daw ang pussy ni Rhema.
Yes, deteriorating kasi she has skin disease.
Lagi silang nagkikita para lang mag-sex, without Jay's wife knowledge.

One time, panggabi si Jay sa work.
His wife discovered na nasa Alabang Sogo lang pala sya.
Later on he confesed na kasama nya si Rhema dun.
Patay na patay raw kasi sa kanya ang babaing yun kaya lagi syang niyayang mag-sex.
Most of the time nga raw, si Rhema pa ang nagbabayad sa motel at nililibre sya ng Pork Liempo.
Pati raw sa bus ay nagfi-finger si Rhema.
Lagi kasi silang magkasabay umuwi sa Cavite that time na sa Makati pa sya nagwo-work.
Kahit nga sa office ni Jay ay nakapag-sex na sila because lagi raw syang sinusundo ni Rhema.

All these years, tight pa rin ang communication ng dalawa.
Masaya na si Rhema kahit ganun ang takbo ng relationship nila.
Basta kasama at kaniig nya lang si Jay, wala na syang mahihiling pa.

SH ang code ng dalawa.
Sa text or sa email and even sa facebook and skype.
Walang hindi ibibigay si Rhema para kay Jay.
Basta magkasama sila, lagi syang open legs para sa kanyang pinakamamahal.
Pag naman hindi sila pwedeng magkita, sa video cam naman sya nakabukaka habang ka-chat si Jay.
Si Jay na aliw na aliw sa nakabukakang si Rhema, na madalas ay hirap na hirap sumimple lalo at nasa malapit lang ang kanyang pangit na asawa.

Kahit sa boarding house sa Makati, lagi syang napunta doon para lang makaniig ang kanyang mahal.
Maraming wild wild wild nights silang pinagsaluhan doon.
Buti na lang hindi alintana ni Jay ang kanyang deteriorating na pussy.
Sarap na sarap sa kanya ang kanyang pinakamamahal.
kaya naman kahit tumuwad pa sya sa lahat ng sulok ng boarding house, okay lang sa kanya.

Kahit anong iutos sa kanya ni Jay, gagawin nya.
Ultimo pagpunta sa bahay ni Jay kahit madaling-araw para lang maka-sex sya ay okay na okay sa kanya.
Or ang pag-uutos nito na baguhin ang kanyang profile sa Facebook.
Or ang pagbibigay nya ng access sa kanyang email.
Or ang pag-uutos nito na dapat lagi syang nakabukaka sa cam.
At marami pang iba.
Ganyan nya kamahal si Jay.
At ganun din sya kamahal nito kaya naman all these years, hindi pa rin sya iniiwanan nito.
Kahit ang paggamit ng *toot toot* ay okay lang sa kanya, basta ang kapalit ay sobrang wild wild na pagniniig.
Mas masarap nga pag may *toot toot* dahil wala silang kapaguran sa pagse-sex for days.
Panakaw man ang mga sandaling pinagsasaluhan nila, masaya na sila at kuntento.
Basta lagi silang magka-sex sa mga sandaling magkasama sila, wala na syang mahihiling pa.