message in a bottle..

Dear Jen,

October 10, 2012..  After the revelation of his "still tight" communication pa rin pala sa Bhelat nya, eto at meron na naman..  Though I'm not sure kung sya pa rin yun, kasi alam nyo naman si Jay, nuknukan ng sinungaling..  So there, I found out na may kinakalantare na naman ang loko..  He still keeps on sneaking a chat and voip whenever possible..  I caught him doing that when I planted a video recorder near him when I was about to go to the bathroom..  And there he was, excitedly and sneakingly chatting unaware of the rolling cam..

October 11 and 12, 2012..  We were playing Eden Eternal and I was observing him since yesterday..  He keeps sneaking a chat and even went through a bit of an ordeal thinking how can he possibly send a chat..  Of course, the genius that he is, he thought of a way by dragging the chat box and making it transparent..  I'm actually amused with him doing that..  He probably loves the girl very much to exert such effort and talent just to talk to her..  I'm a bit envious of the girl..  The guy that I used to love was way way way long gone..  I hope I could find a guy like that again in the near future..

No, I'm not in anyway mad at him.. I'm just a bit upset with his way of showing his intense feelings towards the girl at my expense..  I could handle a million more mistress, but please, not in his usual back-stabbing and merciless and brutal way..  His grudge towards me probably the greater of 'em all..

Anyway, for the nth I just wish him happiness he truly deserves because I can no longer give it to him..  He's better off without a trash like me..  He's so great he deserves a queen and I'm lower even than a common peasant lolz..

To you Jay, be happy and don't worry about the future..  I knew since we became us that you will go further than anyone we know..  And I never doubted that even a bit till now..  I'm sorry for causing you trouble, for losing your family and precious friends..  I'm sorry if I wasn't worth anything..

Well, at least you have someone now..  Make her happy and I can guarantee you that she will make you a happy man ^^  Though its rather tragic, bring the lesson you've learned from the past 15 years and make a wonderful wife out of her..

Don't worry about the kids, you know I will take care of them no matter what..  Just be a happy and contented husband to her..

Funny, I just remembered that I like writing letters to you during college days..  Now that I think of it, the letters had stopped coming since we got married..  And now, maybe for the last time, I am writing you one again heheh.